Hello Friend!
Dare I say it… Long time no see… or type? ….no…read? I’m not sure. The bottom line is that it’s been a while since I have written.
I haven’t written because I have not been myself for the past month. I will always be honest about what I have been through or am going through; it was essential for me to be in a positive mindset when I wrote.
My whole life, for as long as I can remember, the two most essential things that I have needed to function were not my own but others’ approval and validation.
This translated into many different areas of my life and through other times in my life. In 7th grade, I didn’t choose the outfit I was wearing; my friend on the phone the night before would choose the outfit I would wear to school the next day. Anyone who knows me will say that I’m very bubbly and expressional. However, I went through the “skater” phase in junior high because of this friend. I wore dark clothes, heavy eyeliner, Hello Kitty bows, and my hair in my face. I looked the part, but my personality didn’t fit whatsoever.
The different chapters of my life have molded me into the woman I am today. What I like, my morals and priorities may differ from yours, but that is okay with me.
It has taken me years to value the person I am. It’s a journey that isn’t easy, and I will be on this journey for life. But any progress is moving forward. I have learned over the years that people come and go, but you must live with yourself and the choices you make your entire life. We are so focused on all the things we’re not. We’re focused on what we need to be based on what we see around us and what people say we should be. To not require other people’s validation and approval, you need to recognize all the things you are and be confident in them. Live your life for yourself! If you’re on the journey to value yourself, I encourage you to list all the things you are. Hold it close to you and remind yourself of all the beautiful things that make you. The only person who needs to approve you and validate you is yourself.
I am strong
I am kind
I am real
I am quirky
I am passionate
I am honest
I am a hard worker
I am a person who loves fully
I am worthy
I am Brie
